Positive Changes!

Fresh off of the wholesomeness that was the class gathering that I am really really satisfied about, I decided to take a good, hard look at what objectively is making me unhappy in my life and to start honestly working on them. Here goes nothing.

The first and absolutely most important thing that I need to establish: Loving myself. Accepting myself. Wholesomely and wholeheartedly. Confidence. Self-love. All that gucci stuff. No more shortcuts. No more only liking certain parts and criticising others. No more conditional love. This is who I am. If anyone doesn’t like it, that’s their problem not mine, because at the end of the day, who will be there? Me and only me. This also means defining my core values and beliefs. What I believe in and what I stand by. No more indecisiveness because I will know at the core what I should do and act by. This is going to take time but by golly, if and when I get there, it’ll be so fucking amazing and worth every second.

Next is to put the entirety of who I am out there. It’s funny how I’ve come to preach vulnerability yet I realised I have such a huge problem with it. What I mean by all of this is that, I’m going to start doing what I’ve always wanted to but never had the nutsack to try. That is, being socially outgoing. I mean REALLY outgoing. Embracing rejection on every front and putting myself out there to see what sort of wonders I can introduce into my life, because honestly, why not? Life’s short and people are lonely enough as it is so why shouldn’t I be a daring soul, approach people and do what my heart wants to do? Once again, this is a very very daunting task to embrace. Especially since the fear of rejection has been so deeply rooted in me, but that’s just another part of me that I must embrace and move past. This entire idea seems to prospectively be able to alter the quality of my life vastly. You can be damn sure that I will give it a try because what else do I have to lose?

It’s not often the clouds in the sky move out of the way and I can finally see the sun, so when it’s there, you better bet that I’ll take a fucking photo of it, and that’s what this is. There is hope in my heart. For a better life, for the best friend that is myself 🙂

I’ll leave you with random thoughts that I took down the other day in my notes

• Embrace, own, love, who you are. All of it. Doesn’t matter that you’re a “loser”. That doesn’t have to be a bad thing. Reframe your mind. Let go of your inhibitions. Be who you want to be without anyone getting in your way. Be free. Love you 🙂

• Life gonna get a lot better. I fuckin’ know it. You know why? Because you’re gonna make it so. You’re gonna live life aligned to who you are.